fin

i
kept listening for the silence
sounds ripping through the wind
reminded me of chaos
but i needed peace

the tranquility of laying next to your heart
during those nights of nothingness

you taught me

that doing nothing
with someone you love
is better than doing everything you can

alone

but here i lay
alone
listening for the silence
wondering if you
would push your way through the tragedy
just to lay with me

they said i died

for those few seconds
the sirens sounded like angels
heaven opened its doors
and god herself reached for my hand

i wanted more than this
more for us
more
than a lifetime would ever allow

i wanted to walk into reincarnation with you

where we would be monarch butterflies
or dolphins
or grizzly bears
or water beetles
or texas sized grass hoppers
or wind

who cares

as long as we were doing it together

but there i lay
surrounded by chaos

trying to convince god
that this
was not how it was supposed to end
telling her
that her destiny was a lie
and that forever
carried an expiration date

i thought about dates
and how our days never seemed number
how our first kiss felt like it lasted a lifetime
and i was born again into your heartbeat
then died in your arms
only to be resurrected in your smile

but the sirens

kept reminding me that those were just memories
stories written into a book
filled with every lie
or unfulfilled promise that ever fell from my lips

i am sorry
that i am no longer your forever
that this chapter
wasnt written with a happy ending
that this moment
leaves me listening to the chaos

alone

the end

(paulwroteit/copyright 2013)