she said she
would love me forever
when we talked about we
it was always us together
a life full of love
is what we said was our endeavor
but some how our always
has turned into never
i
used to pretend that i didnt see it
late night phone calls past bed times
when the world was pretending to be sleep
she always tried to pass it off as a wrong number
but
the vibration of the night was tied to her soul
and she couldnt find slumber until
the motion of cell phone tickled her mind
so i
lay still
always pretending that her fingers typing out words on miniature key pads didnt sound like godzilla stomping through hiroshima
i knew that seventeen was the number that destroyed my soul
i would listen to each crushing button and count
then type the word in my mind
as if i could tell what she said
three strokes was "143" - a quick way to say i love you
six strokes was g'nite
ten strokes was i love you
and seventeen strokes
was
i love you always
and every morning
just as the sun rose
i found her clutching to her phone like a tourist on new york city streets
fearful that the strangers good morning would go unheard
or missed
or ignored
or silently passed because she was not alone and could not respond the same
so inside i died
and held back my scream
my soul wondered if he
this stranger
murdered our forever
but i quietly moved as if her words were watching me
waiting for the moment
to tell me
good bye
she said she
would love me
always and forever
but now we
stand at the brink of never
because never did i think
that we
would not be together
we promised we would love always
till the day that we die
and today
i found out
that her always
was a lie
(?uiet da artist/copyright 2010)
