admitting addiction/poets anonymous

panic filled my heart
i had gone down this road before
and i knew where it would end

my soul would be drained
but my mind could not stand the pain
of being without it
i tasted it
every time my tongue touched my lips
it haunted me
from sun up
to sun up

i said that i was done
that we were through
but it
called me
by my real name
it knew my deepest emotion
it played with my thought
it controlled my hearts desire

i am
an addict

addicted to places that only this pen can take me
addicted to heart break, sex and love
placed on paper
and read on warm mikes

i am addicted
i
am
an
addict
(quiet da artist/copyright 2006)

the end

she asked if i still loved her
and before i could say i do
images of where we had come from flooded my mind
we went from friends
to fu**in
to FU** YOU
all in one breath
and it was in that moment
that
i couldnt breath again
i knew that together we walked
and in the past
when we fell
we chose to
get up together
but not this time
my soul laid still
hoping she would just walk away
because every time we fell
tears would turn into flames
and flames would ignite my soul
and with each breath
i would hear
FU** YOU
FU** YOU
FU** YOU
no matter how hard i blew
i would hear
FU** YOU
FU** YOU
FU** YOU

so as i laid there
i prayed
that this time
she would just walk away
and the flames would die
and the images that flooded my mind
would dry against my soul
and in time
life's storms
would wash away words
that vandalized my soul
and desecrated my mind

(quiet da artist/copyright 2006)

i still love h.e.r.

she was like a love lost
haunting my soul
i thought about her constantly
wishing for her to touch me
she reminded me of home
she captivated all of me
but i
like many times before
walked away with no reason
i
like many times before
gave her no excuse
i
like many times before
decided that she and i
couldnt be we
home wasnt good enough
so i
like many times before
i left
i walked away
i took my heart and went home
pretending not to be hurt
pretending she didnt
steal my soul
pretending that
i wasnt in love
yes i
like many times before
turned my back on what i love
turn my soul against my heart
forced my tears to flow like rain
and she never said a word
she just let me walk away
she said i needed space
she promised to hold my heart
and if i ever returned
she promised to love me still
she loved me
for being me
and thats why
i
still
love
h.e.r.

(quiet da artist/copyright 2006)