she said

she said yes
way too soon
looking for love
way too hard
searching for someone to satisfy her soul
she settled for seduction
and called it loved
she confused lust with affection
he was affectionate because he
complimented her frame
caressed her softest spots
and touched her when she least expected it
so instead of letting love find her
she
set her sights on matrimony
some said she was rushing
allowing her soul to fall freely
but this was different
because to her
he was love
so
she said its ok
and allowed her battered heart to seek comfort in lies
because every now and then he gets angry
she said its ok
and allowed her withering soul to cry tears of pain
because every now and then he gets lonely
she said its ok
as her swollen eyes showed signs of sleep deprivation
because every now and then he
made mistakes
that she tried to justify
with love
but she confused love with affection

so when they asked if she was ok
all she always said yes
way too soon
(quiet da artist/copyright 2005)

rainmaker

as he
slowly unbuttoned her shirt
you could hear her screams
trapped behind his hand
tears
fought their way down her face
as her body lay motionless
ridged
cold
her hands were
pinned by his knees
as he placed
profane kisses against her face

he had watched her for so long
studying her movements
she unknowingly teased him
with her seductive walk
low cut jeans
and babydoll shirts
she unknowingly ingored his advances
because before today
he didnt exist

she lived in her own world
a world with no past
because with her past came
unwanted memories
memories that until now she was able to forget
able to hide
able to live without

and he
unknowingly
brought it all back

he unknowingly brought back the first time
when
she was only 15
sitting in her living room
crying
wondering if her mother would ever come home
in time to save her from her step fathers sins

he brought back memories of
when she went home with a friend
just after the club
thinking that with him
she was safe
and later listening to him blaming it on alcohol and youth

he unknowingly brought back
every ex boyfriend who couldnt understand why she would say no
and instead of trying to get to know her heart
they would leave her
crying into a pillow
then later offer her soul to the world
as a trophy of stolen conquest

he unknowingly brought back
unwanted touches on crowded subway trains
he brought back
late nights locked in closets
and bathrooms
and under beds
and in cars
hiding till day break
because at least sometimes at daybreak
there would be hope

he unknowingly brought back
everything that she ever wanted to forget
so
she just lay there
and as sweat fell from his face
she cried
wishing she could leave her past
wishing she could free her soul
wishing that her sun could shine

but he
unknowingly
brought back the rain
forever

(quiet da artist/copyright 2005)

last nights dream

last night you were in my dream
and lately you've been on my mind
very seldom can i close my eyes without picturing you
standing next to me
smiling

last night you were in my dream
we laughed for hours about nothing
we talked for days and it went no where
we played like two little kids
just us
while the rest of the world stood still

last night you were in my dream
making me happy
making me young
making me smile
i dreamed about the day we met
the very first thing that you said to me
i dreamed about the first time i held you
the first time we were alone

last night you were in my dream
so today im just letting you know
that i love you and
i miss you
and i will see you soon

love,
daddy
(quiet da artist/copyright 2005)

runaways runway

she daydreamed of model calls
and auditions
she always wanted to be an actress
or a singer
or a star
she idolized those who spread their wings across runways
and flew to their dreams
she had
ambitions of glamour
visions of runways
surrounded by those who would
take her dreams and nurish her soul
she daydreams of designers
requesting her by name
living life trapped in pseudonyms
she wanted to be what designers created for
but
one bad model call
led to one bad audition
her dreams led to nightmares
and nightmares became her reality
she went from
standing on stage
waiting to show the world
how beauty ran the runway
to standing under streetlights
waiting for someone to call her desire
she used to walk with pride
each step just as fierce as the last
wanting the world to know style
but now she walks in shame
hoping no one would recognize her face
her
runway was now fifth street
her dressing room became an alley
high fashion traded in
for the latest in easy access
she was
everything that the world despised
she sold her soul for fame
and now fame doesnt know her by name
she went from culture
to couture
to clinging to lifes dreams
she would never let them know her real name
because that was all that
seperated this life
from her dreams
she turned fantasy
into reality
and some how lost herself in between
to them she was just another runaway
but this was her soul
this was her last show
her last stage
her last runway
this was her last walk to fame
this was her reality
she was a survivor
this was her idol
she was americas next top model
and this was her runway
this was her real world
this was her life
this was her dream...
(quiet da artist/copyright 2005)

glitter

far from home
mind blown
traveling unacquainted paths
and forgetting to leave a trail of breadcrumbs
left in dark rooms
awaiting masked men
who play the role of judge jury and executioner
just to correct mistakes made in lust
i was told to count backwards starting at ten
ten
- i cant believe i'm doing this
nine
- by my got damn self
eight
- i don't know if this is the right thing to do
never getting to seven
i closed my eyes
i could feel my soul die
then my heart screamed
and i cried
for hours i cried
for days i cried
for years i cried
awaken by the sound of someone calling my last name
i was still unsure
as my tears burned through me
i can't stop crying
my soul is to young for a burden this heavy
i can't stop crying
i'm supposed to play with jump ropes and glitter lipstick
but i can't stop crying
as i lay my head back
i close my eyes and in a fleeting moment
i realize
he never loved me
he lied
and because of him
i cant stop
crying
(quiet da artist/copyright 2005)

the king and his princess 

he cried

she wasn’t scared of the dark
-yeah though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
-i will fear no evil
but she told him to keep the lights on
he didn’t understand
but he never thought he would be here
so easily he said yes
she knew that they weren’t alone
-for thou art with me
-thy rod and thy staff they comfort me
she sought comfort in the wrong places
she knew his situation
knew that he watched her
she knew that secretly he lusted after her in intense moments
and it was in those moments that she sat on the front pew
seductively licking her lips
it was in those moments that she held his hand during alter prayer
and handed him a note that only said today
it was in those moments that she planned this moment
it was in those moments that she thought of being here
-thou preparest a table before me
he placed her against the offering table
and slid his hands up her thigh
as he caresses her softest spots he could feel her heart beat
-my cup runneth over
they began to make passion
desecrating all that is sacred
they moved from the offering table to the pew
to the choir stand
to the pulpit
he placed her on the alter
and offered her as his sacrifice
-surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
she said follow me
he never thought that he would be here
so her every move he followed
and as they continued to become one
he slowly began to crucify his conscious
he cried
and she never notice the tears rolling down his face
he cried
and she never opened her eyes
he cried
and just before he exhaled
he stopped and cried
-eli, eli, lama sabachthani
-that is my god, my god why have you forsaken me
and just as adam cried he cried
-the woman you gave to be with me
and as he fell to his knees and tried to pray
-our father
the words fell from his heart untrue
-lead us not
and he cried
-forever
he cried
-and ever

-amen
(quiet da artist/copyright 2005)