troubled man

i fall apart
thoughts of you
ravage my mind like a pack of wild dogs
and i
try to remember the good times
when love was love and we stood in the midst of it
but now
we
stand on seperate ends of the spectrum looking at two different outcomes
staying together would have been so easy
had i not shattered like dropped glass
but i
fall apart
laying here feeling as if my soul has been left for dead
decisions that seemed so right at the time
now look like a fools paradise
and i
find myself walking in desolation
my soul begins to feel the weight of the sun
and the faster i walk
the stronger the wind presses against my sail
when we were us
i felt as if i was flying
but falling sometimes has the same feeling
so when i crashed
i shattered
and now i
stand under the pressures of my own existance
and in the distance i see my salvation
but as i get closer
i realize that it is only a hallucination of an oasis for my desolate soul
i
fall apart
and the pieces are not easily put back together again
i am broken to the core
and even the mere thought of you
unhinges the idea of my soul ever being whole again...

(?uiet da artist/copyright 2009)

DAMN

all i can say is

DAMN

i sit ever so still and watch as you

slip into something so sexy that

all i can say is

DAMN

the darkness in the room

is only broken by the flicker of candle lights

and a soft moon beam that breaks through a crack in the curtain

you glide across the room wearing six inch stilettos and something so sheer that

all i can say is

DAMN

you press play

and the mellow smooth sounds of seduction fill the room

i

sit

ever so still

and watch

as your silhouette travels toward me crowned in my throne

and all i can say is

DAMN

you straddle me

and as i began to caress your frame

you push my hands aside and laugh

slow kisses against my neck

as your fingers began to unbutton my swag

you keep telling me that tonight

is about me

and

all i can say is

DAMN

but i know that right now is about you

its about us

its about taking this beyond anywhere it has ever been

so i sit

ever so still

and let you seduce me

with every inch of your soul

because tonight i

plan on.....

pause - i cant help but consider the fact that even in the midst of writing this i can still taste you on my lips, i can still feel you against my frame, i can still hear you moan my name - pause

so i sit

ever so still

and

watch as you

start us down a journey of seduction, lust and love

i sit

ever so still

and admire the fact that you put so much attention in the detail

i look at you

and i love the details

and in the midst of us making love

i pause

and sit

ever so still

and all that i can say is

DAMN

(?uiet da artist/copyright 2009)

beautiful rainbow

her tears

were the color of her pain

so when she cried

rainbows blossomed

and

memories of her past

poured from her soul like hurricanes

she

cried

blue

because most days were sadder then before

memories of love lost

in the midst of lies

lies to big to be overlooked

lies that lingered

and left her in the middle of lonely

lies that changed lives

she

cried

red

because some days were as passionate as the day before

love blossomed in her bosom

and even uncultivated

love would grow like a weed

until swings from his fist

would tear through her soul like paper

she

cried

yellow

because some days she was to shy to soar

she allowed her wings to be clipped

so there she sat

peeking off the end of her perch

knowing that somewhere

she could

fly until she was free

she

cried

green

because most days

she envied everything that she had ever seen

wasted time wishing

pretending to be in unreachable perfections

searching for love like so many others

sitting around sulking

comparing what they had

to what she didnt

she

cried

tears

that fell like rain

and released the shackles on her soul

so now

she cried tears of joy

because the memories of her past were

just

memories

memories of her triumph

memories of the lives that have changed

memories of the pain that she overcame

she cried

and with each tear she was able to let go

with each tear she was able to free her soul

with each tear

her pain

blossomed

into the beauty of a rainbow

(?uiet da artist/copyright 2009)

standing still

she stood still

even though her heart raced faster than a lightning bolt

the words that ran through her mind collided like car crashes

she swore certain things would never leave the lips of a lady

and she promised herself that tonight she would remain as sweet

so

she

stood

still

hoping somehow his words would rang untrue

looking for the silver lining in the midst of this cloud of gloom

she

began listening for something else to fall from his lips

hoping she would hear his voice through the unrelenting tears

but he

put on his masculinity as if she wasnt standing there hurt

he began

throwing his bravado around like he was back on the block beating his chest like ape

(see sometimes grown men will act like little boys just to get past the pain they caused by breaking a heart)

and even though she knew his tough exterior was just an act

the harder he got

the angrier she felt

until all she could utter was

FUCK YOU

she stood still

as he

quickly broke stride

allowing his brash demeanor

to soak in the sounds of her loosing it all

she was past being a lady

she realized the he had taken her kindness for weakness

her silence for softness

her heart and used it to play with her soul

so as he paused and waited for her to picture the problem in the words that fell from her lips

she

stood still

and with no apology she allowed it to happen again

but this time there was a deafening silence to pierce

so as he stood there perplexed

she held her head high and said

FUCK YOU

and he couldnt even contemplate the severity of the situation

yes he cheated

but somehow his slip ups were never his fault

he blamed everything from the lack of attention at home to the presistance of the temptation itself

she listened to him explain how he was a victim of circumstance

somehow the system put so much pressure on his soul until he had to find solace somewhere else

and as if sex with a stranger wasnt stress enough

he left his seed in fertile soil and now he had a son

so she stood still

she knew she loved him but this was her letting him go

she contemplated what life would be like if he had never said hello

and even in the middle of gloom

she knew they would never be

so as he waited for her words to come full circle

never considering the catastrophe that he caused

she

simply

stood perfectly still

looked straight into his eyes

and said

FUCK YOU

(quiet da artist/copyright 2009)

Recipricol

she asked if i did
i said not really

but for her i would make an exception
she said she neither
but this was special

and she may need some direction

so i gently placed my hand on the back of her head and guided her lips down the side of my neck she traced her name across my chest

leaving a trail of mac lip gloss and glitter

slow nibbles against my nipples and i stood still

until

gentle body shivers caused by the cool breeze of the fan brushing against the moist trail of erotica

that

moved past my navel

she began

removing buttons like obstacles blocking her from her final destinations

and just as she got past the pretentiousness that she thought she had to portray

she looked up and said

i love you

i asked if she did
she said not really

but for me she would make an exception
i said me neither
but this was special

and i may need some direction

so she placed her hand against my head and guided my lips down the nape of her neck

i fondled the softness of her left breast with tips of my fingers

as my tongue teased her right

i allowed myself to work past her pretentiousness as i

pulled away everything that prohibited my path

slow dips of my lips as she placed her hands against the crest of my shoulder until she left traces of her animalistic nature

and just as i felt the arch in her back

and the tension release in her thighs

i

looked up and said

i love you

she asked if i did

and i said

yes

(quiet da artist/copyright 2009)

Owned protected loved

she is mine
if only in my dreams

so i hold thoughts of her close to my heart

i guard the images of us like lion over her cub

she is my waking thought

so when i

open my mind to soak in my day

i

close my eyes and feel her presence

lay softly against my shoulders like the warmth of a hand sewn quilt

she is the reason i come home

hoping my day would end covered in soft kisses and a gentle embrace

she shields me from the pain of the day

she is mine

from the creation of my soul

to the death of my demons

she is my only temptation

yea thou i walk through the valley of the shadow of death i will fear nothing

for she

is

my

rod and my staff

she protects me for his name sake

she love me as only she could

she holds me in her embrace until we are no longer just the sum of our parts

she is mine

owned

protected

and loved

and i

am

hers

(quiet da artist/copyright 2009)