Flawed Beginnings

the first time was like a life time
and i knew i didnt want you to leave
the second time wasnt the right time time
and i knew that you couldnt stay


she
said we would be
that type of situation that didnt need labels
i would be me
she would be she
and we would be
two people bound only by touch
it wasnt supposed to mean so much
it wasnt supposed to go so far
this
wasnt supposed to happen


she
said we would be
free from the constraints of heartaches and lies
free from all ties
free from those things that make situations turn stale
we would be free
to explore that which made perfect us
we were free to live life
free to just lust


she said she
wasnt the type
to fall in love with someone so flawed
she knew all of my flaws
and she said
we
would never be

more than just two people
bound by sexual tension
but
she
also failed to mention
that in the midst of us
flying free
one day
we
may just

fall


and our whole situation was trapped in two nights
bound by two ideas
captured by two thoughts


the first time was lust
with no strings
no heartache
the second time was trust
with ties
and heart break


the first time was sex
with no commitment
no rules
the second time was love
and we were destined to lose


we took reckless abandon
and tried to change it into a lifetime of substance
with us
there was no substance
we went from fucking for the sake of fucking
to spending time
to falling in love
to childish arguments about not calling back
damn
i just want my friend back

i just want to start over
and fall in love from hello
i want us
to be us
with no pretence
no lies
no rules
no boundaries
no plan
and no flawed beginnings

(quiet DA artist/copyright 2009)