standing still

she stood still

even though her heart raced faster than a lightning bolt

the words that ran through her mind collided like car crashes

she swore certain things would never leave the lips of a lady

and she promised herself that tonight she would remain as sweet

so

she

stood

still

hoping somehow his words would rang untrue

looking for the silver lining in the midst of this cloud of gloom

she

began listening for something else to fall from his lips

hoping she would hear his voice through the unrelenting tears

but he

put on his masculinity as if she wasnt standing there hurt

he began

throwing his bravado around like he was back on the block beating his chest like ape

(see sometimes grown men will act like little boys just to get past the pain they caused by breaking a heart)

and even though she knew his tough exterior was just an act

the harder he got

the angrier she felt

until all she could utter was

FUCK YOU

she stood still

as he

quickly broke stride

allowing his brash demeanor

to soak in the sounds of her loosing it all

she was past being a lady

she realized the he had taken her kindness for weakness

her silence for softness

her heart and used it to play with her soul

so as he paused and waited for her to picture the problem in the words that fell from her lips

she

stood still

and with no apology she allowed it to happen again

but this time there was a deafening silence to pierce

so as he stood there perplexed

she held her head high and said

FUCK YOU

and he couldnt even contemplate the severity of the situation

yes he cheated

but somehow his slip ups were never his fault

he blamed everything from the lack of attention at home to the presistance of the temptation itself

she listened to him explain how he was a victim of circumstance

somehow the system put so much pressure on his soul until he had to find solace somewhere else

and as if sex with a stranger wasnt stress enough

he left his seed in fertile soil and now he had a son

so she stood still

she knew she loved him but this was her letting him go

she contemplated what life would be like if he had never said hello

and even in the middle of gloom

she knew they would never be

so as he waited for her words to come full circle

never considering the catastrophe that he caused

she

simply

stood perfectly still

looked straight into his eyes

and said

FUCK YOU

(quiet da artist/copyright 2009)