fly free : #thelightyears

I said the last time

would be the last time

The last line would be the last line

I tried to wipe

your name from my tongue

I chained

thoughts of you in the basement of my mind

Until I realized

that they would still get free

and run through the corridors of my soul

You will forever be in my soul

and my heart

But not my life

I ran you out of my life

Because i was unable to handle your light

And you

Didn't know the depths of my darkness

I wake up

Searching for sunshine behind billowing clouds

There were

summer days

Where some of our days

seemed dark enough to remind me of the light

You were my light

When god said

Let there be

she understood the depths of my darkness

This is my darkness

My darkest moment

Left me praying an addicts prayer

• God, grant me the serenity to accept the fact that i am dying without her but being with her was killing her slowly

I was wise enough to know

That i was killing you

Slowly

I said the last time

would be the last time

The last line would be the last line

I promised myself that i would stop writing

About you

Stop writing

About us

Stop writing

About love

Whether lost or found

But my muse

Was tied up in the basement of my mind

And every time it would get free

I would pick up my pen

And let your light

shine through my darkness

If i stop writing about you

I stop writing

And when im not writing

im dying

So you will forever be in my pen

And my poetry

But not in my life

And not in my light

I will write you

Out of my darkness

And when god says

Let there be

Hopefully i can shine on my own